看了一下访问记录，大多都是从google上搜索“内裤”“性”“...”来到我的米共田的。我很欣慰，我能证明其实大家都会用搜索来满足所谓羞于启齿的偷窥癖。

睡不着，到处转悠，看到有个模板，叫“天蝎”（scorpius）立马换了。仅为了抒发我对身为本星座的满意心情。尽管不太好看。

贴上一首歌，若干年的初秋，也是听着这么一首歌，看着深度近视蛤蟆眼杜拉斯最出名的《情人》，体验短暂秋天，瞬间的衰老，以及试图想起很多年前穿过羊水来窥探这个世界的心情。

本来看看《美丽新世界》就该睡了，但我还是吧唧吧唧地跑上来。

干嘛呢？贴个mm玩玩。

睡不大着。

人一睡不着，就开始胡思乱想。想着想着，就想到了我的梦想。梦想终归是未果，然后自然而然的，就会去找与梦想最接近的东西。

尽管很多人都不待见这部故意味道太浓的电影，不过我觉得真实，因为离我的梦想最近。

                                                                    老徐《梦想照进现实》幕后

                                           当人直面梦想第二次却未果的时候，一定要崩溃。 

昨天傍晚一直到今天现在，雷陆陆续续地在打，雨也陆陆续续非常不爽快地下下停停。

上海整个天气被弄得精神恍惚。

我记得十几年前，经过爸爸妈妈房间去小便的时候，从门缝里瞥见妈妈躺在床上，把烟缸搁在胸口，一口口抽着，爸爸笑眯眯地搂着妈妈，妈妈正喋喋不休地说着香港，还有香港女人。

那天就是像现在这样的天气，打着雷，闪着电，不爽利地下着雨，我感到闷热难当。

等我小完便，走回自己房间的时候，我又往那里瞥了一眼，妈妈一个人坐在床上抽着烟。我这才想起来，我从来没见过我爸爸。

回到房间里，找首歌，日本清脆小女声，夏天听听，能忘记烦躁。

u2的老歌《stay》 最爱听 最爱边看《水浒》边听

为什么老比样子的嚎叫那么哀伤呢？气声也这么淫荡！ 

 每次总是循环播放 她总说：有什么好多听的！

我没响。 

当年听得世界名曲 

当时我用的还是阿尔卡特橙色屏幕的厚手机。半夜三更小发打电话来，我睡糊涂了，没接。

第二天中午清醒后看手机，n条未接来电，1条短信。

“我听得高潮了” 

 老妖精 我想捏死你

Pedalling through
The dark currents
I find
An accurate copy
A blueprint
Of the pleasure
In me

Swirling black lilies totally ripe
A secret code carved
Swirling black lilies totally ripe
A secret code carved

He offers
A handshake
Crooked
Five fingers
They form a pattern
Yet to be matched

On the surface simplicity
But the darkest pit in me
It's pagan poetry
Pagan poetry

Morsecoding signals (signals)
They pulsate (wake me up) and wake me up
(pulsate) from my hibernating

On the surface simplicity
Swirling black lilies totally ripe
But the darkest pit in me
It's pagan poetry
Swirling black lilies totally ripe
Pagan poetry

Swirling black lilies totally ripe

I love him, I love him
I love him, I love him
I love him, I love him
I love him, I love him
She loves him, she loves him

This time
She loves him, she loves him
I'm gonna keep it to myself
She loves him, she loves him
She loves him, she loves him
This time
I'm gonna keep me all to myself
She loves him, she loves him
And he makes me want to hand myself over
She loves him, she loves him
She loves him, she loves him
And he makes me want to hand myself over 

                                                                                  恨不得钻到东风收音机里去